Aku ni pernah jadi GRO ke apa --'
Sakit oh hati bila parents cam over control gila over. Macam benda jadi satu habit. Nak berkawan dengan lelaki pun susah entah tak tahu nak describe cemana. But serious rasa macam terikat on something. Anak orang lain relaks je parents diorang tak kisah but still control and diorang pun tahu baik buruk. Macam aku ni teruk sangat tak reti mana baik mana buruk. Annoying rasanya kalau apa apa just boleh dengan perempuan. Asal kalau buat study group dengan laki pekey bukan bukan --'
Walhal sebenar benarnya aku kat kolej macam hantu
I have my life and I build my life straight in KL. Seriously aku bukannya reti jadi solehah bagai. But deeply in heart still ada punya perasaan nak jadi sebaik baik muslimah tapi its kind of something yang awkward bila parents terlalu terikat dengan pemikiran yang too much negative in their mind. Yelah sedar kot aku ni bukan anak baik bagai. But aku tak bodoh and I'm growing up. Please act me like adult i'm not childish at all.
Poor my friend. One of my friend yang datang dari good family, she is. Mak ustazah, ayah dia Imam. Kiranya orang cam ingat dia tu mesti parents didik baik baik. Tak nafi memang parents dia didik dia fully agama but satu silap diorang is too much dramatic. Zaman dah berbeza, anyone tak kisah siapa pun have their social life. She kawan aku tu merasakan terlalu heavy apa yang parents dia buat, until one day she continue her study in college, she change at all. culture shock pun boleh jadi jugak sebab salah kawan en. At first setakat dosa kering dia buat, then what she became kind of GRO is she stressed on something. I asked her, why you did ? Your parents are good people don't you feel sorry for that ? Dia kata dia rasa terikat and their fault why I become like today you see .
First of all, Iman tak boleh diwarisi. Doesn't mean your parents is good people so that anak pun good people. Boleh jadi anak macam iblis jugak, no wonder ada orang jahat wujud dalam dunia ni and whole of all doesn't mean parents orang tak baik so anak pun cenggitu rupa. Cetek pemikiran manusia sekarang. Don't think you are perfect sedangkan nobody perfect.
As a conclusion, aku ni bukanlah jenis yang suka berhuha sana sini. Cukup waktu aku reti nak tunaikan kewajipan. Tak nafi Allah akan menguji hambanya. Thats why bila my parents are think for the negative situation on me, and I'm not even think that I willing to do that. Its sometime make me rasa macam nak memberontak just like 'Oh okay, you just said that and I will do that'
Haih, aku faham mak ayah aku tak faham actually what mean by having a social life. Maybe bagi diorang social life is something bad. What can I say. Even aku dengan zaa ada masalah tersendiri, we are not as stupid as that utk cerita the whole story dekat parents because they are different. Too much different. Hm
Siapa aku utk pertahan diri sedangkan too much things they gave. Kemewahan, keselesaan and everything. Maybe one day, bila aku jadi parents aku akan faham but aku tak nak jadi parents macam diorang.
InsyaAllah aku akan jadi anak yang terbaik and ibubapa yang terbaik suatu hari nanti.
