Bismillahirahmanirahim with Assalamualaikum :)
Sekejap je kan, langsung kita tak terasa hari kian berlalu kian pantas.
Maybe bagi setengah people out there yang hoping they still wanna live in 2012. Its kind of cute hoping I guess (^.^). Then ada juga yang hoping agar 2013 still the same like 2012. Tak kisahlah apa pun yang mereka hoping tapi bagi aku, aku nak tinggalkan 2012 dengan segera dan merasai 2013. Bukan sebab memory 2012 aku sangat mengecewakan ke apa tapi disebabkan aku tak sabar nak rasa hidup baru. Bagi aku tahun 2012 telah mengajar aku erti kehidupan sebenar. On how we grow up, on how we survive our life, on how we think to live and on how we appreciate the moment and the given from others.
To talk about life. Ia bukan berkisarkan tentang berapa usia kita tapi sejauh mana kematangan kita. Even you are 20 above doesn't mean you are good enough to think how to survive. Why? sebab it depends on our maturity and our maturity is depend on how we work in our life daily.
Talk about me. I don't say that I am big enough to stand or to make a decision, at the same time I still need someone to refer. And kita jangan membodohkan diri kita, refer pada orang yang kita tahu dia setaraf dengan kita or maybe worst than that. Use your brain wisely.
It is a moment where I appreciate the given from Allah S.W.T. Takdir pertemukan kita. I still can't believe he is the one I dream for. Its not about how his looks, but how he treat me. Dia yang ajar aku how the right way to survive this life, how the right way to appreciate people, how to be an awesome person :)
Although, being a college student is very challenging. We work in group, we live in group. And those people is we never met before even kenal dia pun tak tapi kita kena tinggal dengan diorang. Hostel life you people, aku sedang menjejak di zaman dimana aku kena survive. Thousand of people comes with thousand berbillion attitude & personality instead of different backgrounds. And from that, I looks I feels I learn.
Actually aku nak purpose yg maturity comes from failure. Aku gagal dalam hidup aku even my PMR or SPM result tak masyuk macam yang lain. Instead of that, my parents are too much annoy me at sometime and aku rasa tercabar bila parents aku lebihkan orang lain or even bandingkan dengan orang lain. Marah? Siapa tak marah. Haha but kita kena ambil as positive way ( First point of how we can be a matured ). I wake up and struggle but dalam masa yang sama I still enjoying my social day. Its how you arrange your time.
Mak selalu kata aku malas malas malas malas malas malas malas boleh dikatakan everyday and a day satu perkataan malas macam 1000 kali dia kata. Tapi aku buat bodoh masa tu sebab pegang word don't care what people say about you. In the end, bila dah duduk college, kawan aku pun semak macam aku and aku pun mula dah rasa semak sangat so day by day bila dah cuti sem, duduk rumah pun Ya Allah semak nya. From that aku ambil insiatif untuk buang segala semak samun tu. Gila tak freedom kau duduk dalam keadaan kemas. Wei serious selesa and otak yang sempit boleh luas oh. Dan lepas pada tu aku dah terbiasa lepas subuh turun dapur kemas dapur so lepas kemas naik atas tidur. Bila bangun turun, terasa jugaklah macam duduk rumah orang bukan kandang, mak ayah pun tak membebel kan :) Haha. Senang hati lah nak buat kerja lain pun.
But yang paling penting yang perlu ada dalam rohani kita and dalam rumah kita jugak ialah dengan solat. With solat, rumah kita terasa sejuk dia. bilik kita terasa nyaman dia dan diri kita terasa tenang dia :) Believe me. I was a girl yang pernah melakukan kesilapan dan banyak melakukan kesilapan. But I take my mistake as a note so that I won't regret in the future. Melakukan kesilapan bukan menghalang utk kita berada di masa depan yang cerah dan hakikat kesilapan ialah once we do a mistake, we learn we fix we change. But when a twice we repeat the same mistake it is a choice. A choice to live in nothing. Don't judge. Don't waste. Think before you do, talk if you do, ask if you don't know.
